My mother divorced my father because he beat her. He was rich, though,
and got custody of me. My mother refused to turn me over, contending
he beat me too. This simply wasn’t true, but I guess Mom didn’t want
to give the bastard any satisfaction and I felt too sorry for her to
tell anyone the truth.
My mother hid me at one of her childhood friend’s houses in Texas. The
judge put Mom in jail until she revealed my whereabouts while my father
hired a Private Investigator to find me.
I called the woman I stayed with “Aunt” Helen although she wasn’t
really a relation. She, too, was divorced with a daughter named Tracy.
Aunt Helen now hated all men and lectured me incessantly on how I had
to be faithful to my mother and not contact my father under any
On fateful night as we watched TV my whereabouts, which had enjoyed
some brief national attention became news again. The announcer read a
report that my father had contracted even more PIs and would begin
contacting all of my mother’s known acquaintances.
My Aunt watched the conclusion of the piece and turned to me. “John,”
she said quietly, “I knew the time would come when they would search
for you here. I have a plan, but I need your complete cooperation.
Will you help your mother and me?”
This was quite a lot of pressure to put on a thirteen year old. My
mind in a frenzy, I simply nodded.
“Thank you, John. As you know, some bad people will stop here soon
looking for a young boy, but they won’t find one. Do you know why?”
I shook my head.
“They won’t find a young boy because you will be turned into a young
girl! Tracy and I will transform you into such a convincing vision of
femininity that no one will ever guess you was once a boy. Right
“Oh, Mom, what a great idea! John will make a foxy girl. He can
probably wear most of my things and his face is almost too pretty for a
boy already. Let’s start right now. What do you suggest, Mom, skirt
“Since we want to prevent him from being identified as a boy, we’ll
need to go overboard on making sure everything about him just screams
‘female’. That means no pants at any time and lots of girlish touches
even in his most casual moments. We have to go overboard on lace,
lingerie, heels, makeup, the works.”
I forget most of the details of that evening except that I went to bed
wearing one of Tracy’s nighties. My hair had been subjected to
dizzying number of processes and then wound up in enormous rollers
covered by a giant pink cap.
My hands had been coated with skin softener and placed in white cotton
gloves for the night. My face had been slathered in cold cream.
Considering the strange sensations I was experiencing, it was amazing
how quickly I fell asleep. I was awakened at six the next morning by
Tracy. “Get up, sleepyhead. We’ve got a lot to do today. Go and wash
your hands and face while I get your outfit ready.”
I obeyed. Returning, I saw that Tracy had made my bed and laid out a
bewildering array of lacy apparel, a yellow dress and a pair of girls
She handed me a pair of pale blue panties and let me modestly slip them
on under my nightie before I took the nightie off. Next came a
matching bra and dark brown pantyhose. She padded out my bra with
cotton balls and taught me how to put on a blue slip by sliding it over
At this point she wrapped a plastic cape around my neck, sat me down
and brushed out my hair. “Oh, it’s darling! No one will ever suspect
you’re a boy.”
I sat still while she applied makeup. The smells were strange as was
the feeling of my hair tickling my neck. Finally she removed my cape
and let me get up. She held out my dress and let me step into it from
the top “so you won’t mess up your hair”. I later learned that the
style was a shirtwaist, yellow, with a hem hitting me a few inches
above the knee.
Tracy asked me to button the top. It was difficult because it buttoned
backwards, but I finally got it right.
She helped me slip into the brown leather sling back pumps. They had
medium heels and it took me awhile to walk in them but Tracy was
patient. “Real girls take a long time to learn how to manage their
heels, too. You’re doing fine.”
After she was satisfied, she had me wrestle with jewellery clasps until I
was sporting a gold choker necklace, a charm bracelet, an ankle
bracelet and four rings. Finally she sprayed me with perfume and led
me downstairs to breakfast.
It certainly felt strange masquerading as a girl. I had to watch my
feet to keep from tripping in the heels and I found myself attracted to
the nyloned legs and feminine pumps that were mine.
My aunt made a tremendous fuss when I entered the kitchen, making me
stand still as she walked around me. It was weird wearing girls
clothes but I tried to make the best of it and play along.
After eating, I started to learn how to do ‘girl’ chores. My aunt
slipped an apron over my head and tied an enormous bow in back. I was
handed a pair of rubber gloves and told to do the breakfast dishes. I
had an easy enough time of it but I kept having to peer over my breasts.
A strange feeling came over me as I realized that boys would be
attracted to me in my disguise!
I tried to get used to my new identity, but I couldn’t ignore how the
hosiery hugged my legs, how the heels changed my posture-forcing my
breasts and fanny out invitingly.
Eventually I finished up the dishes, cleaned up the kitchen and joined
my aunt and Tracy in the living room.
“John,” my aunt began, “Tracy and I were just saying that we need to
call you something feminine. What’s your favourite girl’s name?” I
stammered that I had never thought about it. “Well, then, how about
‘Heather’? I just love that name, don’t you Tracy?” “Wow, Mom, that’s
great! OK with you Heather?” Consistent with most of my other action
in the last two days, I simply nodded dumbly.
“Well, Heather, we’re about ready for your public debut. My friend
Debbie runs a beauty parlour and she’s agreed to give you the works.
Tracy, get Heather set up with a purse.”
Before I knew it, I had a purse stuck in my hand and was propelled out
the front door. What a clatter I made in my heels! The sight of
sunlight bouncing off my yellow dress filled me with fear of discovery.
I made my way as fast as possible to the car and jumped in the back
The drive into town was uneventful. After my aunt pulled up in front
of the beauty parlour, I opened the door and slid out as I always have.
The difference was that in a dress, I succeeded in having it ride up to
my waist. Two boys whistled appreciably at the leg show I had
provided. Tracy giggled as I turned several shades of red.
We entered the beauty parlour and Debbie introduced herself. “Oh,
Helen, he’s adorable. We’ll have him all dolled up in no time. Strip
down to your bra and panties and put on a robe, honey.” I went behind a
curtain and, struggled out of all the clothing, put on the short pink
terrycloth robe and rejoined Debbie.
As soon as I sat in the chair Debbie and two other beauticians
Practically attacked me! One girl waxed my legs and gave me a
pedicure. The second installed ceramic nails and pierced my ears.
Debbie, meanwhile, cut my hair, gave me a perm and plucked my eyebrows.
Although most of the procedures were uncomfortable, I still got the
impression that I was pampered. While I sat under the hair dryer,
Tracy handed me fashion magazines to read. I couldn’t hear over the
roar of the dryer, but Tracy would point to an outfit and then point at
me, indicating that I would look good in it.
My hair was styled and I was sent to get dressed again. My nails made
everything more difficult, but I managed to put it all back on. The
pantyhose and slip felt different against my hairless legs. I returned
to the chair and waited while Debbie restored my makeup.
The trip home was uneventful except for my sore earlobes. Once there,
my feminine training shifted into high gear!
Tracy had me put on a pair of spike heels at least 4″ tall and balanced
a book on my head to teach me how to walk convincingly. While I minced
back and forth, she read me teenage romance novels and quizzed me on
the girls’ actions.
“What would you have done if you were Sarah? Would you wear a long
prom gown or a sexy short one? How would you have dressed for that big
date with Bob? Do you think it’s embarrassing wearing those little
cheerleading skirts? What do you think that wedding gown felt like?”
Before long I was concentrating on the questions, only occasionally
thinking about managing my heels.
Aunt Helen came in after about an hour and gave me few pointers. “Put
one foot directly in front of the other- it will give you a wiggle.
And keep your legs together as you walk. You should feel you nylons
rub against on another with every step.”
After another hour, me feet ached! Tracy let me change into a pair of
flats and had me practice sitting in a chair, crossing my legs and then
getting up. The goal was twofold- to keep my skirts unwrinkled and to
avoid displaying more of my feminine underpinnings than I wanted to.
It turned out that I tended to be too modest! “A girl is used to
putting her legs on display every day. We don’t think twice about
flashing a little thigh and the boys love it. As long as your panties
don’t show, it’s probably OK.”
At last the exercise was over and I was given another teenage romance
novel to study until bedtime. I had to write down each outfit
mentioned and guess about what underthings would be appropriate.
Finally, under Tracy’s direction, I put my hair up in rollers, creamed
off my makeup, took my ‘vitamins’ and applied the lotions. I slipped
into a pink baby doll set and quickly fell asleep, dreaming of lace and
The next morning I showered with a cap on and dusted myself with
scented powder. Tracy knocked on the bathroom door and told me that we
were going to the mall and I was pick out my own outfit.
With my hair up in curlers, wearing a pink terrycloth robe and
selecting dress from my closet, it struck me that anyone seeing this
would have a hard time believing I was a boy.
I finally settled on a simple black sheath with little cap sleeves. I
laid it on the bed and picked out a pair of black leather pumps with
little roses on the toes.
Concentrating, I slipped on a pair of nylon panties and a new pair of
off-black support pantyhose. I had to slide my male equipment down
between my legs to give me a credible girlish front.
I donned a padded black bra as Tracy had showed me by hooking it up in
front and then twisting it around into position. Next I tugged on a
black full slip and adjusted the shoulder straps.
I sat down and took the rollers out of my hair and brushed it out. It
still looked good!
I sponged on some light foundation and managed to get my mascara on
without smearing it. A little blusher and lip gloss completed my
I stepped into my dress and shrugged it over my shoulders. What a time
I had zipping it up! I stepped into the heels and minced over the full
length mirror. The dress was kind of short, but not too inappropriate,
Remembering my fashion magazines, I clipped on a string of pearls and
pinned on a silver broach. I would have changed earrings but my ears
still were too sore.
I carefully descended the stairs and entered the kitchen. Both Tracy
and my aunt went into another round of gushing over my feminized self.
They complimented my on my choices and even made me hike up my skirts
to show them my lingerie.
After a light breakfast, Tracy gave me a shoulder bag and we all drove
over to the mall. I was a little more confident slipping out of the
car this time and even managed a smile when my aunt commented on what a
racket we three were making in our heels.
We visited clothing stores, one after another. Dressed as a boy, I
only caught a quick glance at ladies lingerie in stores. Now, here I
was not only slowly examining frilly little undergarments, but I was
forced to consider actually wearing them! It was embarrassing to
consider how much of a sissy I had become virtually overnight.
I’m sure I blushed as the salesgirls folded each piece and carefully
The two females seemed to have unlimited energy as they helped me try
on outfit after outfit. I wound up with two everyday dresses, plenty
of blouses and skirts, a strapless cocktail dress and a suit.
The shoe store was next and I noticed the clerk looking up my dress as
he fitted me with each pair. I tried to remember Tracy’s training and
understand that girls really didn’t mind a little ogling.
My aunt and Tracy made all the selections and I wound up with two pairs
of truly towering pumps, one with open toes, a pair of strappy sandals
and a pair of red ballerina flats.
I was exhausted when the two relented and, loaded down with boxes,
returned home. I was storing the purchases when Tracy entered my room
and casually mentioned that we were going to a dance that night!
The thought of a boy reacting to my girlish appearance revolted me but
Tracy explained it was just practice on how to act feminine.
After dinner, while Tracy was getting herself ready, Aunt Helen
concentrated on me. She started with a tight bustier, complete with
garters, and white glitter stockings. I wiggled into a red control
panty and caught a glance of myself in the mirror- I wasn’t the best
built female in the world, but I looked sexy.
She seated me at my make up table and pinned my hair up in a pretty
french twist complete with flowers. She made me up more dramatically
than before and tied a short crinoline around my nipped waist. I was
zipped into the sleeveless silver cocktail dress before buckling on the
strappy silver sandals.
She clipped on a fake diamond choker, silver ankle bracelet and
carefully substituted long dangling earrings for my “trainers”. A tiny
wrist watch, several costume rings, a liberal dosing with perfume and I
I didn’t want to admit it, but I felt pretty! I made my way downstairs
to wait for Tracy. What a strange sensation- my crinoline was making a
racket under my dress while the garters tugged my nylons into
wrinkle-free perfection with each step.
I sat down carefully only to have the hem of my dress pop up to eye
level. My aunt laughed and explained that with my full petticoats I
had to sit on the very edge of a chair to keep my modesty.
Tracy came down the stairs, looking beautiful, and we complimented each
other. I was still admiring her when the doorbell rang. “Here’s our
dates,” she announced with a twinkle in her eye.
“Dates!” I screeched, “I can’t go out with a boy!” But Tracy had
already let the two in and my aunt was gently propelling me towards the
one introduced as “Mike.” Tracy was paired up with Dave. I sputtered
out “Thank You” in a high voice when Mike told me I looked terrific.
Aunt Helen wrapped a lace shawl around my shoulders and handed me a
silver clutch purse. She took photos of the four of us and I tried my
best to smile.
Mike offered his arm and it turned out I needed it as I might have
fallen teetering down the steps in my new heels. I’m sure I looked
delightfully helpless and feminine.
Dave had brought his Camaro and it was impossible to get into the low
back seat with any modesty! We drove to the dance with me constantly
fighting to keep my skirts down but only succeeding in putting on a
private peep show for Mike.
What a contrast it was to look down and see Mike’s sturdy shoes and
thick trousers next to my fragile sandals and delicate nylons with my
painted toe nails peeking through. How had I gotten myself into this?
What if this big guy found out I was really a boy dressed up?
Feeling my bare arm against his tweed jacket, I quickly decided my only
option was to act a feminine as possible. Choking on my words I
fluttered my eyelashes and told Mike how strong he was. He responded
by casually resting a hand on my nyloned thigh.
We got to the dance and again I put on quite a show getting out of the
car. Tracy just smiled at my startled expression when Mike put his arm
around my waist and ushered me in.
I was never a good dancer, let alone in heels, but when Mike and I
started a waltz he led masterfully. I just stayed on my toes while he
kept balance for us both.
It was humiliating to feel his hand on my back, toying with the zipper
and bustier snaps. Every now and then he would grind his hips into me
and even wearing a crinoline I could feel his manhood pressed against
me. I, meanwhile, had my equipment tucked up and couldn’t respond
under any circumstances.
Whenever he twirled me, my skirts rode up exposing my stocking tops,
garters, and even my red panties! Several of the real girls glared at
me and my brazen display. Tracy was no help at all, threatening to
expose me if I didn’t adjust my garters while Mike looked on.
I felt totally embarrassed watching the boys in their suits, knowing
that I should be among them instead of wearing a pretty dress and
passing myself off as a girl. Boys were supposed to do important deeds
to succeed, while I had been carefully prepared to present my feminine
charms to anyone who cared to look.
With Mike’s dancing skill, however, I finally relaxed a little and
tried to enjoy myself as I glided across the floor.
The evening ended with me a little less frantic in the Camaro’s back
seat. I let Mike put his arm around me and even let him give me a peck
on the cheek at the door. I felt like a complete sissy and broke into
tears as soon as Tracy and I got inside.
Here I was, a boy, wearing a dress and sobbing into a lace hankie with
mascara streaks down my cheeks. My Aunt cleaned me up and made me take
a hot bath before bed.
I think it was that episode that broke my will. Starting that next day
I was resigned to my pretty skirts and stopped thinking about the next
time I would be wearing trousers.
I became more aware of women’s fashions and admired a girl’s appearance
instead of mentally undressing her. I began thinking of the feminine
finery in the closet as my own. I completely mastered the art of
walking in heels and no longer felt angry when a boy admired my legs.
I became addicted to romance novels putting myself alternately in the
male and female roles. My aunt taught we dressmaking and embroidery.
Soon I was making some of my own outfits.
The so-called ‘vitamins’ that I had been taking every day turned out to
be female hormones. The first inkling I had of the truth was when I
noticed lumps under my nipples. I confronted my aunt who explained
that she merely wanted to keep my masculine drives under control and
that the slight changes to my body were only a temporary side effect.
Tracy was aware of the changes, of course, and made a big deal out of
the first time I filled out a 34B bra without padding. My hips had
added weight as well, making my panties fit better.
I had been masquerading in skirts for almost four months when Aunt
Helen informed me that she considered me convincing enough as a girl to
risk a trip to see my mother, who was temporarily out of jail pending
appeal. This involved an unescorted plane flight and my first solo
outing since my feminization.
The morning of my trip found me sitting in the foyer looking out the
front window. I was wearing a burgundy suit with a white see-through
blouse with a standup collar revealing an utterly feminine white lace
slip. I had wiggled into cream- colored control top panty hose and
beige leather pumps. Tracy had made me wear an underwire bra that
urged my breasts into prominence.
Gold hoop earrings, an antique locket, a tennis bracelet and several
rings completed my ensemble. I toyed idly with my necklace until it
was time to leave.
Aunt Helen and Tracy drove me to the airport and stayed with me until I
boarded the plane with my overnight bag and burgundy purse.
As I minced to my aisle seat, a wave of humiliation came over me. I
had let two females take away my masculinity and now, without anyone
guarding me, I was trying to pass myself off as a girl! I had allowed
myself to be petticoated and then cooperated in learning to become more
and more ladylike.
My skirts were hiked up dramatically as I stood on tiptoes to store my
bag. As we took off, I crossed my legs and began reading a new romance
novel. The men in the adjoining seats openly admired my legs and I
even allowed a wisp of my frilly slip to remain on display.
The novel contained a steamy scene where the young heroine, on her way
to the New World, was slowly seduced by a handsome pirate.
With my male equipment tucked away and inoperative, I couldn’t respond
to the sexy passages in the normal way- instead, I noted with alarm
that my nipples hardened and the only gratification came from bouncing
my leg and swinging my pump on and off with my toes. Even
unconsciously I had acquired feminine gestures!
Just before we landed I took my cue from the females on the flight and
freshened my lipstick and checked my hair and makeup.
When we landed, there was the customary rush for the exit. I waited
for the plane to empty, since I didn’t want to get tripped up rushing
in high heels. I normally didn’t have to think about my heels, but I
had only four months practice while these real women had had years and
I collected my things and slowly walked off the plane. It wasn’t hard
to spot my mother; she was wearing melodramatic dark glasses as some
sort of disguise.
I walked up to her and whispered a hello. Her eyes went wide as she
recognized me. “John! Is that really you?” We hugged like mother and
daughter. I was embarrassed to realize I was so feminized that I had
been concerned about my makeup as we embraced.
Not knowing if we were being watched, I instructed her to call me
Heather as we walked outside and took a cab to the hotel. With the
driver listening, we didn’t talk much during the ride. Mom spent most
of the time inspecting me and smiling a funny kind of smile.
When we pulled up to the hotel, I remembered my training and let men
open the doors and take care of the luggage. Once in the room, my
mother couldn’t stop raving at my impersonation. She ran her hands
over me and nodded as she hefted my breasts and patted my hips.
“I know this has been a tremendous sacrifice on your part, John, but
I’m so happy that you’ve accepted Helen’s program as well as you have.
Since you’ll have to pretend to be a girl for awhile longer, let’s make
the best of it and pick out something gorgeous for us to wear to
I had expected my mother to let me revert to being a boy as long as
possible, but instead I found myself spending our limited time together
shopping to look even more feminine.
After trying on dozens of dresses, she picked out a red chemise for me
and a black beaded sheath for herself. I also bought red patent D’Arcy
spike-heeled pumps while my mother was off selecting my lingerie. We
took all the boxes back to the hotel and went down to the hotel’s
beauty parlor to have manicures and our hair styled.
How strange it was to sit next to my mother and exchange girl-talk
while being primped for an evening out! Back upstairs we began
changing for dinner and I got my first look at the underthings she had
bought for me. Nestled among the finery was a red satin corset. My
protests fell on deaf ears as the hellish contraption was wrapped
around me and snapped up in front.
I thought the corset was uncomfortable, but bearable. That was until
she began tightening the laces! She had to put her knee in my back to
pull hard enough. At last she tied off the cord as I began to swoon
from the lack of oxygen.
I looked down and saw my breasts cradled in the soft underwired cups.
In the corset it was impossible to slouch, resulting an apparently
proud, thrust-out bosom.
Mom handed me a package of seamed black stockings. As I rolled them up
my legs I noticed they felt different from any I had previously worn.
As she helped me straighten my seams, she explained that they were real
silk. How luxurious they felt!
I tucked my male equipment away, wiggled into a pair of black bikini
panties and stepped into my new heels. I walked over to the mirror. I
looked like a pinup!
I asked my mother why she had dressed me in such provocative undies
when the last thing I wanted to do was attract men? She replied that
she wanted to reward my girlishness by treating me to sexy underwear.
While she got herself ready I slipped on my new chemise and felt a
little more modest. The hem barely covered my stocking tops and the
bias cut suspended the entire front from my out-thrust breasts.
My mother lent me her diamond earrings and choker necklace. I had to
admit we both looked good enough to eat as we minced out the door and
took the elevator up to the restaurant.
As we entered the restaurant several different emotions fought for
control. On one hand I felt uncomfortable being laced into a corset
and balancing in the skyscraper heels, but I also felt proud of my
appearance and the way the hose and heels flattered my legs and the way
the corset and dress presented the rest of me. There was no way to
fight it, the outfit had been carefully designed to attract men.
At regular intervals, though, I would be reminded that I was really a
boy and felt ashamed at my lack of resistance to my feminization and
that I willingly dressed as seductively as I did.
We were seated at our table and my mother must have seen some pangs of
doubt in my face. “Oh, Heather, don’t be concerned- you look just
yummy. Just relax and let the female in you enjoy yourself.”
I tried to follow her advise and simply chatted with my mother as if we
were two girls. I stopped compulsively tugging on my hem and just let
men admire my legs as if I didn’t notice.
“You manage your heels perfectly, dear. Helen and Tracy must have had
you practicing day and night.” I actually blushed at the complement.
There was a particular man who never took his eyes off of us. I
pointed him out to Mom and she nodded. “That’s right, Heather, you’ve
spotted Jim Hanks- one of your father’s private detectives.” Seeing us
both staring at him, he smiled and came over.
“Good Evening, Mrs. Higgins, who is your lovely companion?”
“This is my friend’s niece, Heather.” I whispered a ‘hello’.
“Heather, where is John Higgins?” I protested that I didn’t know and he
just nodded. “I admire your loyalty, Heather, but it’s misfocused.
John’s father misses him and wants him back. I think I’ll visit you
and your aunt sometime soon and see what there is to see.”
He returned to finish his meal.
“Well, Heather, it looks like you’re destined to stay a girl for quite
some time. Is it really so terrible wearing your pretty dresses and
acting feminine?” I admitted that I sometimes enjoyed the girlish
clothing and activities, but I missed being a boy and often felt
ashamed of acting like such a sissy.
“Oh, honey, I’m afraid we can’t let you return to being a boy right
now. The best I can do is to make your feminine life as enjoyable as
possible. I’m giving you charge cards for all the best stores and I
expect you to buy freely with them.”
After dinner we had a nightcap in the lounge and returned to our room.
We undressed (I got to remove the hellish corset), removed our makeup,
put each other’s hair up in rollers, donned our nighties and went to
bed. The next morning I had to fly back to Aunt Helen’s house. My
mother and I got dressed and packed up our things. I had on an
underwire bra, cream nylon panties, dark brown support pantyhose, a
white teddy, white silk blouse, long brown skirt and my new red pumps.
The skirt reached midcalf, but it had a long slit in front that showed
off a generous expanse of leg whenever I moved.
We took a cab to the airport, hugged each other, and went our separate
ways to our flights.
My seatmate was a boy about my age. He was dressed in a dark blue suit
and tie and read a collection of hot rod magazines with intensity while
I scanned more fashion monthlies.
What a contrast to see his casual masculinity next to me. He was
studying how to create a fast automobile- something tangible, while I
fussed with my skirt and worried about getting a run in my hose.
Aunt Helen, with Tracy, met the plane and the three of us drove back to
her house. As I unpacked and hung up my clothes, I was struck with my
situation: although I was a boy, I had to wear panties and skirts-
there simply wasn’t anything else to choose from! Besides, even if I
somehow found some boy’s clothing, my blossoming breasts and hips would
make me look ridiculous.
At dinner, Aunt Helen informed me that she was hosting a very important
tea on Wednesday, and that I Tracy and I were to dress up for the
On the morning of the tea Tracy and I helped each other get ready. I
started with a pale blue bra and panty set followed by Tracy’s puckered
panty girdle and a new pair of light beige nylons. I slipped on a pair
of mules, wrapped myself in a robe, and ate a quick lunch. Back
upstairs we did each other’s hair and makeup.
I wiggled into a white half slip and got into my dress- it was a floral
lavender chiffon tea gown. It had a plunging neckline, highlighting my
cleavage, full cuffed sleeves, and a wide belt. I carefully sat on
Tracy’s bed and slipped on a pair of purple slingbacks with an open
Tracy had chosen a creme silk suit with matching pumps. As people
began to arrive, we sprayed ourselves with perfume and added our
jewelry. As I waited for Tracy to finish, I inspected myself in her
mirror. I patted a few imaginary wrinkles and then quickly blushed at
the feminine gesture. At that moment I felt absolutely girlish. I was
wearing uncomfortable underwear just to look attractive. I had spent a
considerable length of time worrying about the choice of stocking
Finally Tracy was ready and I flounced down the staircase behind her.
Quite a few people were there and I flitted around the house helping
serve the tea and sandwiches. As I approached a couple with their
backs to me I heard the man say “I still don’t understand why you got
me to come here to Helen’s house. Is John here or not?”
“See for yourself. Here he is!” They turned and I dropped the tray I
was carrying. The two were my parents.
“See what your son has become? A utter and complete sissy. He wears
dresses and high heels, paints his long nails and has pierced ears.
He’s even had a date with a boy.” “Is all this true, John?” I broke
down in a feminine outburst of tears and ran upstairs.
My father decided he didn’t want any part of a sissy son and dropped
his law suit. I returned home with Mom and was kept in dresses until I
I’m back in pants, now, but every time I see a pretty girl I study her
clothing and gestures. After all, I walked more than a mile in her